April 27 , 2015
Good Morning My Friend ,
I hope you are well today . I have so much that is going on I really don't know where to begin . I wise man once said ''being at the beginning''. I am a woman who as been in the Craft my entire life even before I knew what it was . When I was small , I was really small . I knew things I should not of known .Things about nature and magic .I knew these things with out being taught . I knew things before my elders . Like who would be on the other end of the telephone before it was answered and the things they would say before they were said . I loved outdoors it was a way of escaping all of the abuse of a step father. I would run to the woods to free myself of the drama that surly was at home waiting for me . I can remember when I was a little girl ,my mother getting upset at me for playing in my closet , mixing spices and herbs I found the kitchen cabinets to create new mixtures in my own little world I was happy . I could tell my mother about family members that where away in Germany serving in the army about when they would be coming home and how life was in different counties . Things I could not possibly know at such an early age .I was so young and knew so many things . And now I am older and it seems like I forget so much . Funny ? Well , Time pasted by and when I was about 15 a friend of mine had a book
(Raymond Buckland's Complete Book of Witchcraft )
I read it and as I went from page to page I began to see I was not the only one like me . I also felt a''Duh?'' moment like I knew the words on the pages where already written on my soul . My mother would also tell me I was an old soul . I was almost like I had been here before it was all common sense . And I thought '' Why wasn't everyone like this or perhaps they where and I just didn't know it'' . My mom was not like me . To me she was closed off . It was like we were disconnected .She would tell me that the Fairies took her baby and left me behind for her to rise . Which for the longest time that made me so very angry because, I didn't know why (if that being the case ) would my Fairy family leave me with someone that could not keep me or herself safe from harm .
I came to grips at an early age that this place is just a space in time that I am in for a brief moment , for what ever reason and that was yet to be seen and that I needed to make peace with it in order to succeed in my endeavors.
I am in touch with my inner Goddess Mother however we do not talk every day and that is no ones fault. I like everyone else at times, I get to ''Busy'' to stop and breathe in Life . I am trying to find a way of balance . Balance is a strange thing ? I have found for me at least it comes in waves , and at times it is hard to catch . Life is running around us like a busy interstate with speeding automobiles whizzing by in a blur with people going this way and that way trying to find their own balance .
So , I guess with this first entry I say. '' Stop and Breathe , take the time to look around you
enjoy if only for a moment the place and time you are in .
Blessings from a
Solitary Practioner
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